You're Building More Than You Know
When you leave the church, you're rebuilding your entire framework for understanding reality, whether your realize it or not.
The space where those beliefs lived doesn't stay empty.
It will fill with either unexamined reactions or intentional reconstructions.
You deserve to build your life on something you consciously choose, not on:
- reflexive reactions against what you left
- fragments of the old system you haven't examined yet
This isn't ultimately about rebuilding a relationship with the divine, though that may happen.
This is about rebuilding your relationship with yourself.
About deciding how you want to exist in this world on your own terms.
You're reconstructing:
- Who you are when no one is watching, when no performance is required
- Your values and ethics: what actually matters to you, not what you were told should matter
- How you make decisions without commandments or authority to defer to
- What gives your life meaning and purpose beyond what was prescribed
- How you connect with others when the script of church community is gone
- How you navigate grief, joy, death, uncertainty, and being human without a Christian answer key
You have the authority to rebuild all of this intentionally, consciously, and in a way that honors your life.
This course walks you through how:
✦ Understanding what happened: how theology shaped your nervous system, identity, and imagination
✦ Making space to grieve (even the parts that hurt you), because it was still yours
✦ Discovering where you actually encounter the sacred: the places that feel alive, honest, and yours
✦ Building your own framework for living rooted in your values, experiences, and vision for your life
You're already doing this work.
This course helps you do it with intention instead of exhaustion.
Not because you need saving.
But because clarity makes the journey gentler.
Because you deserve tools that match the depth of work you're doing.
This Course Is For You If:
✓ You're ready to move from reactive deconstruction to intentional reconstruction
✓ You're still drawn to the sacred but need to find it outside the institution that weaponized it
✓ You want to understand the mechanisms of harm so you can heal with clarity
✓ You're discovering the sacred in unexpected places and want to trust what you're experiencing
✓ You're ready to build a framework that serves your actual life instead of someone else's agenda
This Course Isn't For You If:
✗ You're not ready for the emotional work of reconstruction
✗ You want someone to hand you a new belief system to adopt wholesale
✗ You're looking for quick fixes or simple answers
✗ You've concluded nothing is sacred and that worldview feels complete for you
What Makes This Different
This respects your authority and intelligence. I draw from feminist theologians, liberation theology, medieval mystics, and psychologists. But I do not tell you what to believe. You have had enough of that. You get tools, not doctrines. Framework, not answers.
This treats reconstruction as serious work. Not a phase, a crisis, or something to get over, but the deep audit of your entire worldview and the rebuilding of something true.
This is trauma-informed. You can find the sacred in new places without erasing what was real in the old. You can hold complexity without forcing it into resolution.
Your Guide
Connie worships a queer, disabled, and menstruating God. She is a mystic, artist, writer, and teacher who undresses divine flesh in object, abjected, and rejected bodies through the lenses of theology, disability studies, and queer theory. She holds a Master of Divinity from Harvard, where she was awared the Frederick Buechner Award for Writing, and an MFA in Creative Nonfiction from the University of Iowa, where she was an Iowa Arts Fellow. Her writing has appeared in The Flannery O'Connor Review, Frictions Media, Harvard Crimson, America's Test Kitchen's "Proof" podcast, and more. She has just written her first book, Trash Abbey, which discovers divinity in discarded flesh.
Your Course Includes
4 Audio Modules (Nearly 2 hours total)
Theology-rich, trauma-informed guidance through each phase of reconstruction. Listen while you walk, drive, sit with your coffee. Think of it as being accompanied through the work.
Workbook (80 pages)
Deep transformative work including: Letter-writing to process what happened. Grief inventories to honor your losses. Mapping exercises to recognize where you find the sacred. Space to articulate what you believe. Practices for living your reclaimed faith with authority.
Lifetime Access
This is yours. Move at your own pace. Return when you need it. You set the timeline.
FAQs
How long will this take me?
The audio is nearly 2 hours total across 4 modules. The workbook exercises take as long as you need: some people complete them in a week, others take months. You set the pace based on what serves you.
Do I need to believe in God to benefit from this?
No. This framework works whether you're theist, non-theist, agnostic, or still exploring. The language is flexible so you can engage with what resonates for you.
Is this just for ex-vangelicals?
No. While many examples reference evangelicalism, the framework applies to anyone reconstructing after harmful high-control religion, or leaving toxic theology.
What if I'm not ready to "rebuild" yet?
Then start with Modules 1-2, which focus on understanding and grieving. Return to Modules 3-4 when you're ready for active reconstruction. You decide the timeline.
Will this work if I'm still attending church?
Yes. This is for people honestly examining their faith—whether you left last week or you're still attending while questioning everything. You're capable of this work regardless of your current church involvement.
What if I need more support?
This course is self-guided, designed for people who work well with structured frameworks. For ongoing community support, consider joining my Patreon where you can connect with others on the same journey.